32 Weeks Already!?

I feel like with always trying to catch up my posts, I never get caught up as something else already happened lol. So just going with the most current for this post.

As of today I am now 32 weeks, which seems so crazy that officially there is just 8 weeks left.

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Due to my age, having a premie before, and other fun stuff they are starting me this week with non-stress tests, and next week it will be three appointments a week (two are at least on the same day).

As of a few days ago, I have been having a hard time catching my breath, at least that is how it feels. Not trying to rush her at all, but if she could move down just a little and give my lungs some room that would be fabulous. 🙂

We had our baby shower last weekend and little Ms. Arizona is already loved and spoiled. This coming weekend is time to get everything finished setting up and moved around. 🙂 I just have her dresser/changing table to paint and everything else is ready. Phew.

I forgot to take a picture of the hostess gifts, but they received a stemless wine glass that says It’s A Girl on it..I put some white life savers in them and a votive candle. I am so thankful for them for putting this together. Loved how it was decorated and I think everyone enjoyed the games. ❤

So crazy we are about half way through October already. Well, thank you for following our crazy lives along.

Mom/Daughter Time

I have tried making it a point to get some mom/daughter time, we call them dates, with each of the girls. They are each different and like different things, and yes of course they have several of the same interests and we use those for our family times out.

Up first was a pedicure date with Makaylah. Out of the little two, well current little two lol, she is more girly girl and loves this stuff! She actually wants to a pedicure/manicure appointment for her upcoming birthday day with me.

 

Arianna was next and loves frozen yogurt, so we went to Menchies and enjoyed a little talking over frozen deliciousness.

Arianna momdaugher time

Sonya’s was a little more unique this month. She has been wanting a tattoo, the OM, and I finally took her to get it. Pretty pleased with the tattoo she picked and we were both happy with how it turned out.

 

We started September off taking advantage of both of us being off on Labor Day, and took the girls to Great Skate, enjoyed pizza, the little two skated, and dad and the girls enjoyed some games before we left. Our oldest went to the session after with some of her friends. See…do what you can now before they want to spend time with other people.

 

It doesn’t have to cost a lot, it doesn’t have to be every weekend, but I do feel that time alone with you little helps them be more open with talking to you, and they feel special. Make the most of the time you can.

Thank you for reading about our crazy adventures!

Craft Time!

Last month I actually did something just for me, not a date out friends, not a date with the hubby, not a date with the girls, just me. I don’t it that often, and the biggest reason is because I don’t like doing things by myself, lol. But I have to admit this was fun. I enjoyed conversation with the people around me.

This is even something I am thinking about getting into, this can be done as a business!

Back to the fun though, we made a hello fall sign. Everything you needs comes in a kit, minus hot glue and scissors etc.

Craft night

When you attend one of these nights, there is someone there to direct you each step of the way, like a paint night. I have seen these signs before but was intimidated to even try doing it on my own, but after doing one, I am hooked!

For the letters, which is what always intimidated me, we used transfer paper before doing the final dark color. The paper takes a little work to make sure it comes off and transfers correctly, but once you have the hang of it, it’s just a matter of not rushing.

 

 

While I was there I saw the back to school chalk board signs and had to get it, front and back!

 

My oldest is not so much a picture fan anymore….I will get her yet though lol.

There is one for babies that I am going to get the next craft night I go to.

Thank you for reading about our crazy adventures.

Wednesday Fun Leads to More

The past few summers I have missed taking the girls to the Wednesday fun nights at WestGate, this year I was able to take them to two and am hoping I can take them even more next year.

The first night we went it was IronMan and Spiderman there. If we had a receipt from WichWich for $10+ then we didn’t have to stand in a line for pictures. I got there later than I wanted and thought for sure there would still be a line, even on the receipt side, but there was not. And boy was I glad after seeing the actual line, we might have been there all night! Ok, well at least until the end of all the other festivities.

 

 

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Makaylah won a free two pack of donuts from Fractured Prune, they are delicious if you have not gone, you must! they make the donut right when you order it. You get to choose the toppings, glaze, drizzle etc. We ended up going on the weekend, but the girls were happy to get more time out of the house.

 

We went the following Wednesday and saw Princess Elena. The girls had fun dancing and we enjoyed Shane’s Ribs (no pictures but it was good BBQ).  They have something going on from the time it starts till it ends. We saw a dance performance from a local dance school, the girls got to do a few activities up on stage, etc. Definitely hoping to take the girls a few more times next year. Blessed to work at a company that has a good life/work balance.

Princess Elena

Remember, before we know it the time we have now with our kids will be gone, make the most of it! It can be done around work, sure you are tired, but this time with them means the world to them.

Thanks for catching up on our crazy adventures.

Camping Weekend Fun

Wowza where does the time? Oh I know, it goes to work, it goes to homework time, it goes to cooking, oh the so many things we do as an adult, and we thought adulting would be all fun, lol.

Actually, we should make sure to enjoy some time for ourselves, and with our families. this weekend, well over a month ago now, was just that. Having fun with family, extended family, new friends.

On the way up there Rosie, our dog, decided being a lap dog was the best way to travel.

Rosie

Once we got there, we got our tents all set up. Since there are 5 of us, and Rosie we ended up with 2 tents, one smaller and one larger, and then a screened tent where we set up Rosie and our coolers and little cooking area.

Wanted to make sure we had some quick meals so after scouring google and pinterest I ended putting together a few things. Not pictured is a sandwich option, we had rotisserie chicken, cheese, lettuce, tomato, onion, and brought some miracle whip. I just had a baggie for each part of this, and then put it all together in a bigger bag to keep it all together.  One of the things I was excited to try is called walking tacos. I did the same as with the sandwiches, put tomatoes, lettuce, cheese, onion in bags and put everything in a bigger bag. The only thing I needed to cook was the hamburger, once heated we added the toppings we want into a bag of doritos or fritos with the hamburger grabbed a fork and we were good to go. I took a few bottles of shake and make pancake mix, bacon and eggs, girls loved having this for breakfast. Easiest meal was the fried chicken and potato salad we took just to grab something and not worry about cooking or washing anything.

The girls ended up having a blast. I was worried they were going to get bored since normally our camping involves a lake and swim time. They hung out with other kids there and they did their own thing. I am pretty sure I only saw them at meals lol.

We set up to make smores our first night. I think this was the one thing they were looking forward to once I told them we were going camping, lol. They passed out within minutes the first night.

You’ll notice my oldest is missing. She found some teens/young adults to hang out with, and we did not see her, even for meals lol. I do have a group photo, but not sure everyone wants the photo public, so not posting that.

Saturday they had some fun games set up for the kids, also for the adults, but again not sure they all want those photos posted lol. For the kids they had a bottle drinking contest, it was very funny watching them trying to drink from a bottle. They had a tug a war game where they put stockings on their heads and tried pulling the other side of off the other kids heads. They also had sack races, and poor Makaylah, the sack was just about as big as her, so she got some help towards the end.

We got a trip out in a razor. It was nice getting out and made us think about some things we would like to save for, one day.

Razor

This is a year event that we plan on attending. Next year might be a little more tricky with the baby, but we’ll see how it all goes. Below is the awesome group we were with. They are our extended family, and some of the best friend anyone can ask for. I am looking forward to some fun end of the year events with them.

camping group

Thank you for catching up with our crazy fun.

Camping Must Haves

No surprise I am behind on our adventures, lol…Before I catch up I wanted to share our camping must haves!

First up on my list is sunscreen and lip conditioner. Beautycounter is my go to for anything that goes on on our skin since it’s free of parabens and over 1500 other harmful chemicals and ingredients. They have the strictest standards in the US, and even stricter than European standards! We used this sunscreen over our camping weekend, and not a one of us got burnt. The Lip Conditioner is fabulous! I use it at night and my lips are nice and soft in the mornings, no chapped lips here thank you!

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The next thing we have to take with us, is our Heart and Hydration! This is not your average “hydrating” drink, and it’s better than any sports drink. While hydrating your body, you are also promoting healthy heart with ingredients like CoQ10, D-Ribose, and more. There is even some Elderberry in there which is used for their antioxidant properties. With no sugar and low calories, this is a great addition to your healthy lifestyle!

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While we didn’t need these for our last trip, I suggest having some games on hand to prevent any boredom. We did actually break out the glow sticks party set the second night and the girls loved making bracelets and necklaces to wear around the campfire that night. I bought two of the catch games this way four of us could play if we broke them out instead of just two, but we didn’t even open them. Going in a group helped the kids stay occupied with their walks and hanging out. 🙂

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More to come of our last camping trip and the fun we had.

Today Was No Stranger

Normally, in the past I would take to poems, but the words for poems seem to escape me, and the words coming to mind are not poem material of any kind.

I have to be honest, because I am sure I am not the only one, and sometimes keeping it in just makes it sit there and hurt.

Today, was no stranger, it’s a day like many others in the past, maybe situations were different, but the feelings all the same. I sit here tonight and wonder how this crept in again.

Without going into history, writing a novel, short story is I feel like I have given up so much of what I want to keep peace. That I still give things up to keep peace, and even keep my hair “long” (below should length at least) for someone else. I look around me in our house, and I don’t feel like any part of it is my house.

Dealing with other issues on a daily basis that I just don’t talk about (partly because unless someone has been there they don’t understand certain differences, and it’s not always easy to explain) has me mentally drained all the time. I have to mentally prepare our youngest daughter for her day, EVERY DAY. Those who know our girls now, probably have no clue how far any of them have come. And that’s fine, it’s our journey.

The biggest thing eating at me tonight, has me feeling all sorts of guilty, is that before this pregnancy, I feel like we had reached a great spot in our journey together. We were both shocked the day we found out. I even wanted to cry for a few minutes when I found out we were having ANOTHER girl, and then I got over that. The girls are happy, the youngest is very much involved in weekly updates and wanting to know what baby looks like now, how big she is etc. So what’s the problem? I feel like this pregnancy turned me into a leper in our marriage.

With that last part being said, I know the reasons why, but I constantly am wanting time with my husband. I want attention, I want quality time. This stems from my history, and normally I can calm myself down. Calm myself down? Yes that’s what I said. I have battled depression for years, never found a counselor I liked. I figured out on my own how to cope. How to recognize when I was slipping, how to pull myself out. It takes work, and everyone is different, my ways might not be your ways, so I am definitely not saying do not see a counselor, do not avoid meds, etc. You have to find what works for you.

This pregnancy has me going haywire sometimes by the minute. I can’t catch myself. to add to the hormones, or whatever it is going on, I am constantly hot! Never felt like that with the others. Since about 7/8 weeks I haven’t been able to sleep a full night, on top of being tired already. None of this makes a good combo.

Before I say anything else, before you think I am totally bashing my husband, let me say he has been awesome. He knows his snoring keeps me awake, so he sleeps on the couch so I can get as much rest as I can. He has done some store trips when he’s tired to get certain things. I know the couch hurts his back so I bought ear plugs, and then he just kept falling asleep out there, and the wax ear plus I used the past hurt my ears now for some reason so he said not to worry about it.  We have done more as a family in the past few years, more so this last year, than ever before. And that creates great memories with our girls. There are reasons I love him, I promise.

Since this pregnancy, even when we are all home together, I don’t see my husband. He comes home and immediately goes to the back room. The spot we were in before this pregnancy is gone. I feel like we are back in our beginning years, the years we struggled the most. I call them our young and dumb years. We were young, and were dumb lol…simple as that. We loved each other, but seemed clueless how to make certain things work, and with two stubborn people, it was not always pretty. So to get back to what has me feeling all sorts of guilty, is the thought of not wanting to be pregnant right now. I was done, I was so done I was at the surgi center to get my tubes tied. I had a couple times in the first trimester were I was PISSED because I was so exhuasted I could barely make it through the whole day and that was coupled with feeling nauseous all day long. I got over that, that trimester ended and I felt better, at least not as exhausted and the nausea stopped. But feeling like our relationship went backwards and wishing we weren’t here right now, has me all sorts of guilty.

Every child is a blessing. We have been blessed with three beautiful, unique, daughters. We are being blessed with one more. This is God’s plan, not how I am feeling, not how we are in this situation, but Arizona is a blessing. I wouldn’t trade her, any of my girls, for anything in the world. I cannot wait to meet her.

I do wish that I didn’t feel so drained regularly from dealing with certain things and then to top that off with feeling like a leper trying to figure out how to repair what I thought was repaired. I so often feel alone, and sometimes I am the one who does it, or the only one who feels that way, or the only one who sees things a certain way, it’s exhausting to just be me sometimes, lol…funny but not funny.

It’s hard feeling like your own husband wants nothing to do with you, hard to get him to relax, have fun, dance with you even, and then see him do all of those things with other people, knowing you are hurting/upset at that moment. Feeling the way I do right now for a bit, I flipped the crazy switch tonight. This pregnancy has been the hardest on me mentally, and physically in the sense that I just am tired and have no energy.

I don’t even know if this all flows together or just sounds like the ramblings of a pregnant woman. But I share, while going through this, feeling this way, because I know I am not alone, maybe situations are different, but I am not alone in the feelings. I think it’s been looked down on to share certain things, and we feel so guilty about feeling the way we do when we should acknowledge it and talk about it. So that is me, putting it out, being real, in this moment.